LONG RUN.

HUSH.

"I am thankful for having you" -S. You are definitely not thankful for having me because you don't have me. You had me before and now you certainly don't have me anymore because I was smart enough to finally let you go. I can't stand of "trying" to make this work when its really not going to work. I'm tired of this whole break up and make up situation. I'm so foolish of myself for actually taking you back thinking you "change" when you haven't because you are who you are. You can never change that fact. You've brought me up through my toughest times. The hardest thing about being the strong one is not knowing when to give in. The hardest thing about faith is having too much faith. The hardest thing about the future is fear of failure. The hardest thing about letting you go is afraid of you coming back over and over again. I know what I'm doing is the right thing. We had a long run and this is the end of the run. Its like running a marathon we cannot go any longer.

9 HARDEST TIMES OF YOUR LIFE.
1. Being questioned when you yourself don’t understand.
2. Pretending to be innocent of what you know about.
3. Trying to forget something you know you never will.
4. Admitting you were wrong after you have been insistent that you were right.
5. Debating with yourself.
6. Accepting the fact that some things are not meant to be.
7. Trying to understand when you just can’t.
8. Realizing that you’ve been tricked after you’ve given your trust.
9. Letting go of someone you’ve loved all your life.

CHANGE.

Just like Barack Obama said "Change We Can Believe In." People need to start changing themselves and believing in themselves. But can someone change from good to bad, bad to good? Can you really take someone back even though if they change? You never know the if they really change. 'People start to lose their feelings for the person they love toward one to another. People start to do things they never experienced before. People start to cheat on one another thinking its okay to cheat. People start doing drugs thinking it wouldn't harm them and they'll "feel" good after a few but then they'll find out that their overdose. People will start treating/respecting people badly/goodly. People start to commit suicide because of a stupid reasons. People start to rape/kill people thinking its for revenge. People start to find out their true self. People start to cry their heart out because of someone they love. People will start to realize "If its really worth it or not." &Finally people start to realize that they are who they are and they can never change that fact.' From my perspective I think someone can change if they put commitment into it just like in relationships. But what about me? Did I change? I can't even find out where I am and where I belong. I don't know who I am anymore. I need to find that old ME who don't have to worry about anything and don't have to put up with any bullshit and just live her life happily. Where ever I go there is always trouble coming in my way no matter what. Why can't I have a normal life without no drama?.. What more can I ask for? I just want to be happy and not have to worry about a thing. I don't have to worry about what other people think because I AM WHO I AM.